Monday 1 December 2014

Withdrawal

I start nights tonight, and managed to get back to sleep for a while after K had left for school, but it wasn't a comfortable experience, in a psychological sense. I had a dream, almost a nightmare, about everything in my life breaking down, leaving my dream avatar almost at the point of mental breakdown. Then I woke, for the second time, to hear two radio news stories which have left me even more unsettled, fearful of what this society wants for people like me. Repression, and revenge, as far as I can see. So, given that a large part of the raison d'être for this blog has been to discuss my life and experiences as a boylover in today's world, a discussion the world simply doesn't want to have, there may well be a considerable diminution of my blogging activity. I don't feel safe even talking about the issue anymore, despite my remaining pseudonymous, and, in that connection, my 'Invitation to a discussion' page has also been removed. The blog will remain here, at least for the moment, as will Nephelokokkygia, but if conditions become much more negative, I may have to review that position. There probably will be new posts, but I suspect that blandness and mundanity will be the watchwords. I'm sorry to have to do this, but I have K to think of, as well as myself, for at least the next couple of years, and I feel it's simply too much of a risk to draw attention to myself in this subject area any longer.

Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

11 comments:

  1. Sometimes discretion is the best policy.

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    1. Hello
      Once my daughter has finished her education, and gone her own way, what happens to me thereafter is unimportant. I can't, though, justify putting her future at risk, however small that risk might be, any longer. And, of course, there is the point that to have a discussion requires at least two parties, but discussion of boy (and girl) love is effectively impossible in the current societal climate, so why bother to even try?

      Love & best wishes
      Sammy B

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    2. dis·cre·tion
      dəˈskreSH(ə)n/
      noun
      noun: discretion

      1.
      the quality of behaving or speaking in such a way as to avoid causing offense or revealing private information.
      "she knew she could rely on his discretion"
      synonyms: circumspection, carefulness, caution, wariness, chariness, guardedness;
      tact, tactfulness, diplomacy, delicacy, sensitivity, prudence, judiciousness.

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    3. Hello
      You evidently have doubts about my literacy, so I would like to reassure you that I was previously aware of the definition of the word 'discretion'. And of the word 'sarcasm'.

      Sammy B

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    4. From the response you made, it seemed you misread the word 'discretion' as 'discussion'.

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    5. Hello
      I use my comments section on occasion to expand on the original post. This was one of those occasions.

      Sammy B

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  2. It's a shame that people can't discuss things civilly. Or apply some intelligence to others orientations. But I understand.

    Peace <3
    Jay

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    1. Hello Jay
      I've surrendered, in effect, and it doesn't do much for what's left of my self-esteem, but there it is. They're right, of course, all those 'right thinkers', they must be, after all, they agree with every word the tabloids say.

      Love & best wishes
      Sammy B

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    2. I know. Please know you've got my email...actually, I will email you and send my new one...let's us keep up the friendship via that medium, even if you aren't here as much. OK?
      Peace <3
      Jay

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    3. Hello Jay
      I'll still be around - just less prone to put my head above the parapet. And yes, I'd like to stay in touch, which, given my dislike of 'social media', will indeed need to be by e-mail.

      Love & best wishes
      Sammy B

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    4. Any time, my friend, any time!
      Jay

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